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Because I believe passion drives this business, I want to take a moment to be completely transparent about the source of my passion. A little over a year ago I went back to work full time after having my son. I was suffering from some “baby blues” and serious anxiety. I don’t mean I was stressed, I mean I was nearly paralyzed by the weight of fear and anxiety within me. Several outside stressors were impacting it. My husband had just got out of the army and was going back to school so we had lost an income and added a child. The financial stress combined with a new baby in the house was detrimental to our marriage and it was literally crumbling apart. I felt like everything around me was in pieces and I had nothing to hold onto. Moreover, I was laden with guilt. I felt guilty about leaving my baby, even though I had no choice and was carrying a weight of guilt and shame from my past. I knew God could pull me out of this pit but I could barely lift my eyes to Him to ask for help. Worse, I didn’t feel worthy of his help! I finally met with my pastor for counseling and little by little I started to feel the upward spiral of hope within me. I began spending more time quietly in God’s presence and eventually I stopped spinning and striving and let him take control. He began to open my eyes to the freedom of his grace and I was able to rest in him, letting my fears subside. The outside stressors were still there and my family was still counting on me to be the sole source of income. I never dreamed It Works would be the answer to many prayers and the tool God would use to pull me out of the pit I was in. I felt his peace about starting this journey even though I was overwhelmed by the thought of adding one more thing to my already busy life. In March 2013 I took the leap of faith with a goal of making enough each month to help us make ends meet. God had bigger plans. He has used this company not only to change my family’s financial future but to bring me closer to him. I have no idea how to run a business or lead a team. Seriously, none. Everything I do is God working through me. He amazes me everyday. When you work outside of your own ability you open the door for his spirit to use you in mighty ways. I can’t take a breath without God giving it to me. During those dark days in the pit, I realized my need for him. Even making dinner for my family was a monumental task. Now I need him more and more everyday and am caught up in the overflow of his blessings. I know trials will come but his sweet presence will be with me still and I will have another victory to share. Whatever your story, shout it from the rooftops! Let your passion drive you and watch where it takes you!